I said I'd get on here and spill my guts, and here I am. A time frame...August 17 will be 7 years, 1 day and 7 hours. That is is how old Andy will be...almost 7 years exactly after having our first little guy, that their little nest in my belly will be gone! After thinking long and hard about it, and having 3 doctors tell me it is the thing to do....I am having a hysterectomy. :( I am torn on how I feel about it...I am excited to not feel the things I do...but still- it sucks and it is scary and I am pretty bummed about it. They have reassured me that I wont really feel that different after it, so I believe them. We are done having kids, but it is still hard knowing that I can never even have the chance to be pregnant again...even if I wanted to. I just look at our 3 little boys and am so glad that we started young and are done now, because who knows if we'd be able to have them if we waited. So there you have it. I could go on and on...but that's pointless. It is just weird to have a date to put to it after it was a "what if" for so long.
Thanks to Facebook, I have not been Voxing much. I haven't been doing much of anything. What a time sucker-upper that Facebook is. If I weren't so addicted to it, I would deactivate the thing. And I figure, almost anyone who reads this, can get it on FB! But tonight I am bored, so here I sit!
I would update with tons of new pictures, but our external drive is turned off because it sounds like an airplane crashing...so I can't do that.
There is tons that I want to say...but do I want to say it here? Eventually I probably will...but I am not ready to have people breathing down my neck about it. Let's just say that each day, I am one step closer to just getting on here and spilling my guts about it, but have to have details and have it sorted out in my head first. (A handful of you probably already know what I am talking about!) ...(No, I am not pregnant!) ;)
Well...if that didn't make sense to you, let me just say that the inside of my head is spinning and even more confusing than my last paragraph!! Anyway...
Summer has been great so far. I seriously love having Andy home with me and Justin and Ryan during the day. I miss him so much when he is at school all day 5 days out of the week. I love having our 3 boys together and hearing them giggle and play together all day long...with the random arguments here and there! We have been doing all of the fun things that every kid should be doing during the summer... Playing on the swingset, eating popsicles, surprise trips to DQ, playing in the pool and on the slip and slide, relaxing and going up north. Andy is in baseball and Justin is in K.I.D.S. (kids in developmental sports). We went to the beach with Lynn and Haylee a few days ago...I had the only kid who was crying and wanting to go home! It was past Ryan's nap time, the sand was hot and he didn't like the water! Geez. Doesn't leave much else to do at a beach, huh?? (Sorry we weren't there long, Lynn!!!) Not to mention that I am afraid of that beach because they have blood thirsty sunfish!! I got bit by one twice in the same day a few years ago- the little jerk drew blood too! Evil little fishy- I still need to get back there with my fishing pole and show the thing who's boss!
On a different note... I have this uncontrollable urge to go shopping. I have a big wish list too- new couch for the living room, bedroom set for Justin and bedroom set/ headboard for me and Jake.( I ahve been told that I can mentally spend money faster than anyone! I might agree- but atleast I am not PHYSICALLY spending it all...theres a big difference!) We have the most icky, nasty, blah, junky room in the whole house. It is stark white, we got rid of the old headboard (YAY!) , and it is kind of the dumping ground/ laundry sorting room... so we both have visions of those nice rooms people get on HGTV and are brainstorming how to do ours. There are so many other random things I would love to buy for the house...but just have to hold my self back :) Down girl... just because theres a sale, doesn't mean I HAVE to spend money to save money ! Hahaha. But, while I am trying to figure out for sure when classes would be a good idea for me to start back up, I wouldn't mind a side job here and there... Like my own little photography business right out of my house ;) That would mean I need a new camera though... Oh dear God, I should never had read the "Shopaholic" books! I can justify buying almost anything now. Ha!
Well...we'll see how much I can keep up on this page. I will try to do better...unless people just want to keep up on Facebook! But sometimes it's really hard to get my point across in the few little lines they give you to update your current status.
So we got Justin's allergy tests back today. They are all fine EXCEPT for maple trees. My little punk is allergic to maple trees. How does that happen?? Maple trees...Really???? We just planted 3 of them in the back yard last fall, too. What a weird allergy. So now I need to ask if it is an allergy and the viral induced asthma, or just the allergy, since I couldn't ask when they called the first time. We were at school getting ready to watch Andy's first grade program (which was adorable by the way...). I will post pictures of that if I actually download them sometime soon :)
Maple trees...don't know if I'll ever comprehend that one?????
I made an appointment for Justin to go to the doctor today because he still has a cough and noise in his chest. Most people would say, "So whats a little cough?" But when you consider that 3 out of the 4 years of his life, he has gotten a cold in December or so, and not gotten rid of his goopy cough until June, I would say it's a big deal. Same goes for this year. All 3 boys got a cold around the same time. Andy and Ryan hardly got a cough at all, while Justin got an all out rattling cough that won't go away. I have brought him in twice already and it had turned out to be pneumonia, but not today.
Today we saw a Dr. that I don't think we've seen before...maybe once but I don't remember. The other Doctors the kids have seen were ok, one was really good...but this one was exceptional :) He listened to Justin's lungs after checking out his super cool hot rod shirt wtih the flames down the sleeves. Justin was tickled because this is his very favorite shirt ever. He heard some wheezing in his lungs...so the doctor is thinking that he may have asthma. He also took some blood (Or had the lab come in and get it, anyway) to do allergy testing. He is thinking that maybe Justin has an allergy, or viral induce asthma. Either way, we are about to find out... and that is more than any other doctor has done in the past!
So as the lab girl is sticking the needle in his arm ( I gave her fair warning that he has hard to find veins...a trait he got from his mama!), and digging around a bit, she finally finds the vein. Justin was so amazingly calm. He just sat there and took it. I could tell it hurt but he didn't budge. Once she got the little vile filled up and left the room, Justin looked at me and through fighintg back tears in his eyes, he says "That didn't even hurt me mom...I am like steel!"
Awww..you are such a big strong boy Justin. That made me want to cry becasue he was such a big boy. But at the same time I laughed because it was such a Justin thing to say. The kid is hilarious.
Well...now we wait and see. He has 2 prescriptions for the nebulizer, and he needs to go back in a month so the doctor can listen to his lungs again... (again, more than any other doctor has even come close to doing! No one has ever wanted a follow up appointment before!). Next week we will get the results from his allergy test back too. All that is going through my head is Molly (our cat) and how happy Jake would be if we had to get rid of her if Justin happened to be allergic to her! We won't even go there right now though...now we just wait.
By the way.... Hi Tom :) How do you like to see your name in print? You are so famous now :) Anyway- you will have to let me know if you want to me put your letters on a thing for you or if you just want the letters and then design your own "thing" :) I haven't forgotten...and not only that- it would give us all a good change to hang out again :) I know the kids would love to play...and you missed the last one so let's plan it! Leesa?? Anyone?? :)
I know I am a little late getting this on here, but I am just getting my pictures downloaded off the camera, and moving some from a different file to my picture folders...
On Saturday Jake had a big day planned out for me for my birthday. I had no idea about anything...at least not what he had planned. I wondered what we were doing because he kept asking me if we had plans for the weekend- so I thought if anything, we would be going on a date to see a movie, or something like that.
So, on Friday night, I went over to the neighbor's and had some wine and talked for hours- it is always so much fun to go over there :) Apparently, some of the wine was bad (we assume so since we both felt like crap the next morning) and no...if you're wondering, we didn't have TOO much :)
Jake was nervous and asked if he should cancel plans or if I thought I'd feel better later on. That was the first and only clue I had that he had some big plans. Once I started feeling better, he told me that I had about an hour to get cleaned up before I needed to leave the house. So as I am putting on my moisturizer, he told me not to go any farther with makeup because I was going to get a facial at Solimar. (Do I need to say that this is all AFTER the surprise he left me on the counter a couple days before my birthday...My Cricut machine!!!!!). All I had to do was call him right after I got done to get my next set of instructions. I laughed because I felt like I was in my own version of Mission Impossible. I was so excited because I had no idea what he had planned next and I couldn't wait to find out :)
My fasial was SO relaxing...I don't even know where to start... I had hot tea (and actaully liked it???) and a warm neck wrap, during the fasial the girl put steamy hot mittens over my hands, covered me up with warm blankets, along with a hand, arm, neck, and head massage. I actaully dozed off for a few seconds at a time because I was so relaxed... ahhh....
When I was done I called him and he told me I had to be home by 2:30 (it was 1:20 at this point and I was about 35 minutes away) but I needed to go shopping and buy myself something nice to wear. So I ran to the mall and I knew I'd be safe going to Maurices...I always have good luck there :) I got my dress and matching necklace ,wooed the cashiers wtih my story (they said it sounded like something you see in the movies) and after that headed for home- but I did stop at Taco Bell to get something to fill up my stomach since I was starving.
I pulled into the driveway and he met me outside the door. The kids were at his mom's and he was all dressed up and we left. As we are driving to the next stop I couldn't help but try to guess where we were going. The Ballet? The opera?? We've never gone to those before...I don't think I'd like the opera- the ballet might be fun to watch though?? I had no idea what to think so I was thinking crazy thoughts! So I find out the next place is the science museum. We watched "The Great Lakes" in the Imax theater. It was really neat so we decided to bring the boys back there to see the race car movie sometime soon! They will love it :) We were so tired that we both dozed off here and there during the movie- we are party animals!!! (or maybe we are just tired from raising 3 high-energy little boys). So after that was over, we got in the car and headed towards Minneapolis.
This is where I got confused. There area we were in was quiet. It was obvious there was no big event- no large groups of people...nothing. So as we are walking through the skyways (Which is really quiet and scary on a Saturday night) we finally came up to the entrace to the Grand Hotel. We were going to eat there and that was why we were all dressed up. It was nice and quiet- we had the place to ourselves about 1/2 of the time). We sat by a old arched window and they had some old instrumental music playing and I started feeling like it was 1940. We talked and had the best time...we could finish a complete sentence without getting interrupted-- it was the weirdest thing! So then we started talking about the boys and going to get them since we were done eating... I missed them after not seeing them all day, but there was one more (ok..not really one more- the next of a few more surprises). We got in the elevator and went to the 15th floor. I thought there was an observation deck or something, but then he pulled the key out of his pocket and we walked into this suite with Aveda shampoo and white robes, tile shower, deep soaking bath tub and a bed that was so damn comfortable I felt like Annie at Daddy Warbucks mansion.
To sum up the next surprises...he had packed EVERYTHING...contacts, toothbrushes, makeup, wine (which I didn't want because of the night before!!), roses, and 31 floating candles that he made out of a pool noodle by slicing it and gluing a tea light to to the top of each piece, everything... I was blown away. I did feel like I was in a movie - or a princess- either way, I felt great.The next morning we slept in and then we ordered room service... THEN we left to go get our boys, about 12 hours later than I had thought. What girl doesn't dream about getting sewpt off her feet like this?? Now I have, and I can't thank you enough :) Thank you and I love you baby!!!! Someday, I hope I can make you feel the way I felt for my 31st birthday!!!!
Today is "No Housework Day." Tell us: What's your least favorite chore around the house?
Really? I missed the memo on that, so to start, here is what I did SO FAR on "no cleaning day"...
1. Cleaned the boys bathroom
2. Washed the kitchen table and chairs
3. Vacuumed the whole first level of the house
4. Did 3 loads of laundry so far...still have to do more (and put it away)
Now I have dreams of finishing the rest of my list too...
washing windows
re-cleaning the kitchen (even though I did it yesterday...it's gotta be done daily)
cleaning and sweeping the laundry room)
cleaning our bedroom/bathroom
cleaning the basement bathroom
vacuuming the stpes and the upstairs level
wash Andy's sheets
put the cloths bins from Ryans room into the storage room
FINISH vacuuming and cleaning the van that I started to do last week
Plus homeowrk and returning emails...
and if there is a spare minute leftover, I would like to play in my scrapbook room
(and go to Menards to work on getting and idea of building supplies for the deck...)
Not likely to get done but that is why I said "dream" about it getting done.
Oh yeah...forgot the point...
My least favorite thing to do around the house is to "put away" laundry and also cleaning potty off the toilets...its rough being the only girl in the house and cleaning THEIR pee off the toilet and the floor around it :) I need to teach those little boys some better aim! Oh and dusting...I don't like to dust either... But really, I do like to clean!!!
What a day. Not a great day. Justin's still coughing, now Ryan is barking and Andy has a little cough. Nothing bad, but I just hate it when they don't feel good. I wasn't in the greatest mood all day and made an absent minded mistake when I went to our girls night tonight. I just got out of the car, turned off the lights, locked it and walked down the street to Turtle's to eat. I didn't have a clue that anything was up until Jake called me asking why the police called him to ask if he knew that the car was parked in front of Domino's for the past hour with the engine running and no one in it. I don't know what he said to them, but I know I feel like a fool. And now I am telling all of you about it??Why am I doing that?? I have no idea. I am glad that the car WON"T actaully lock if the keys are in the ignition or I would have been really upset. Can I blame it on the fact that the two girls I was with are pregnant and I suffered from sympathy pregnant brain for them?? (didn't think that would be a good enough excuse) Thankfully- it was no big deal, but it could have been! All because I had a bad day. I have never done anything like that before. I needed this night out for sure!
Even through my bad mood today, the kids still had me laughing. Ryan was wobbling down the stairs to the basement, and since the steps aren't carpeted I like to watch him until he gets to the bottom so I know he got down them ok. (Like I wouldn't hear it if he got got down any way other than safely, right?). But he turned around half way down the steps and looked at me and said "Shut the Door". I just stared for a second trying to figure out if he could have possibly just told me to shut the door, so I said "What?" And he repeated it! It was one of those times where I couldn't hold back my smile and I giggled at him. Just to double check I asked him if he just told me to shut the door and he looks up at me and looks into my eyes and says "mmmmmhmmmm". Ok...so I shut the door :).
Earlier I made Justin some dotted letters to trace on some handwriting paper. Then I bribed him with chocolate to trace the letters and told him if he practiced enough, soon he wouldn't even need the dots to trace- he would just KNOW how to write the letters. To this very second, I am trying to figure out if his response was a good one, or if he was yelling at me like the tone in his voice suggested... "Mommy, YOU ALWAYS HAVE THE BEST THINGS FOR ME TO DO. THIS IS ONE OF THE BEST THINGS FOR ME." He sounded pissed as heck at me but he was saying the sweetest thing...I am so confused. All I could say was...ummm thank you? Then he hugs me and says "Mommy, you are the bestest for me!" I wonder what I did to get that treatment!
Andy was home today for the first official day of spring break. It was so nice to have my 3 boys with me today... (In between the arguments and sassing back...but that is ok) I woke up this morning to him laying in bed next to me watching cartoons nuzzling his head into my cheek. How sweet is that??? I LOVE that. He said he did that to make me happy :) So stinking cute.
Hmmm....didn't I say I was having a bad day?? After writing this, I am not so sure my day was really that bad. I was in a grumpy mood- but how could I be grumpy when my day is full of this???
We are sitting here watching Super Why and I realized I haven't updated this for a while. (Other than the picture of the lilac last night...and I already want to change it.) I am so motivated today. I bought new cleaning supplies at Target last night and I want to use them and make my house smell clean and fresh. I want to bring the kids outside to play, and to go to the zoo...memberships are great! I already know that most of that won't happen though. I don't want to bring Justin and Ryan outside (until I can RUN after Ryan who thinks it's funny to run down the street and to look back and laugh at me while I am holding my gut in place so it doesn't jiggle when I run, as I TRY to run and catch up to him...he is REALLY fast by the way-REALLY fast. ). I swear the kid knows I am not running at my full potential right now! What a stinker.
We also won't be going to the zoo since Justin has pneumonia....again. I brought him back in yesterday because I wanted to find out why he still had a bad cough. I don't understand this at all though. He is the type of kid who gets a cold in December at the same time his brothers get the same cold, and Justin will have his cough until may or June while everyone else got rid of their cold a week after getting it, and most of the time he is the only one to even get a cough in the first place. So yesterday he got antibiotics again, hopefully they help him this time. But what I really wanted to know when we went in there was WHY this happens to him. Yes, thank you for the medicine but I want to know why every year he has a nasty chest cough for month after month. I asked The Doctor that exact question and he dodged around it. I know Justin doesn't get pneumonia every year, since I have brought him to the doctor time after time for this cough of his. Other reasons for his cough in the past have been a sinus infection, allergies (which he doesn't really have), could be asthma but he isn't wheezing right now, and now pneumonia- twice within 5 weeks??? I think that they really don't have any idea, and I am getting irritated that they won't answer my question. It's like the doctors can only focus on what is right in front of them and won't think in the big picture. Argh.
So, I think we will just have a relaxing day around the house. Justin will watch TV most of the day and that will be OK for today. He can let his medicine kick in and when he feels better, we will go play and do all of the fun things that we talked about. Ryan will walk around and play and jabber in my ear and make me laugh at his cute little voice saying words. I will use my new cleaning supplies and it will be a pretty simple day after all.
On a different note... I have been saying how much I want to get out with the boys and show them different things. I am talking about things like going to baseball/football games, but also to plays, museums and musical events too! So yesterday, on PBS, they showed a commercial for a Magic Tree House musical that is coming to town. Justin heard the commercial and told me about it (cute- he is looking out for his big brother who LOVES the Magic Tree House books) and squealed because he recognized the name. I really want to bring Andy and Justin to this! Ryan is still too energetic to sit through something like this but the older two would LOVE it! I think that would be the best birthday present ever...a nice day out watching the boys have fun (hint hint hint hint!!!!), while Ryan had some special '"Ryan only" time with whoever was watching him that day! It would be their first little musical and I think they'd have fun. I hope they would anyway...I mean that's the whole point, right??
So, I think I am done rambling. I will be posting some pictures soon! We went to Under Water World (or did they change it to Under Water Adventures???) So I will be putting pictures from that up here...the downer is that the battery to our camera died before we even got out of the tunnel so I didn't get the bazillion pictures that I normally would have. But we will go back and I will be prepared with a fully charged battery next time! I also have lots of little videos that I need to get on here, but I think they are all too big- so maybe not? I will have to see what I can do.
Alright, there is a little boy sitting next to me with a diaper that is just screaming to be changed- even though it doesn't bother Ryan too much :) Peeeeeeeewwwwwweeyyy. How can someone so cute have a butt that smells sooooo bad??
Ok- am I the only one who came to this site yesterday to read what my sweet and lovely neighbors have written, and was then surprised with a page of porn??? I would see Vox for a minute, but then all of the sudden, a page of porn popped up. All I can say is that I am so glad that the kids were downstairs and not looking over my shoulder at the computer like they are half of the time! It was an interesting start to my day I guess??
Too funny, I just logged on this morning for that same reason, I forgot all about this site!!! I too... read more
on I almost forgot about this thing